There may be days v. 06

An essay from October 2021, revised for today

There may be days when the storms outside bring calm to the storms within you.

There may be days when a power outage brings the quiet you need.

There may be days when emotions are overwhelming and you honestly can’t answer the question : Is it worth it?

There may be days when you are totally taken off guard and your walls crumble and the door swings open and holes get punched in that screen door you always keep latched.

There may be days when you sit in the question and the not knowing and also the deeply knowing and you feel caged and want to claw your way out.

There may be days when you start to feel safe and in that safeness the tears come and the sadness of all the decades of never feeling safe, not even for a second.

There may be days when confusion hits and instead of spiraling into black holes that want to devour you, you move into curiosity and wondering and allowing and breathing.

There may be days when you need your chosen family to remind you that yes feeling our feelings can be i…