When the sun comes out after months of silver and grey, I’m reminded how to come back into my body and life and can see just how cocooned and hermitted I was over the winter.
The older I get, and honestly the more I study astrology and quantum entanglement and sink into my own form of spirituality, the more I am able to accept divine/cosmic timing and the reality that everything, from quarks to trees to humans to our relationships, have their seasons of ebb and flow, expansions and contractions, death and rebirth.
I’m not the same person I was in 2021. Or 2022. Or even a year ago. The people who have been in my life over the last few years have all been a part of my exponential growth, healing, and change during this time. Some of them will continue to be a part of my growth and change, some will not. This is the bittersweetness of healing - people come in, relationships grow, and eventually we find ourselves at a crossroads, and if the relationship can’t morph and flow and change with us (or us with it), then it needs to come to an end so everyone can continue on the paths they are meant to be on.
Potential energy is theoretical. Kinetic energy is measurable. In other words, we can see who or what a person or situation could be, but that means nothing compared to the actions taken showing us who they actually are in this moment
We can both grieve because something has come to an end and be eternally grateful and joyful for having experienced it, even if it feels it was all too brief.
We can have forever in a singular moment.
Endings bring beginnings. Often we don’t know a new beginning right away (though sometimes we do). Some things need to fully end so we can give our energy to what wants to begin and grow.
Learning new people can be anxiety provoking and can activate our anxious attachment parts. Reminding ourselves to slow down and practice grounding in curiosity can help us find some calm as we move through the process.
Remembering we never meet the same person twice, not even in the same person, can open doors to intimacy we never knew even existed.
When we have a disorganized/fearful-avoidant attachment style, it can be a challenge to navigate our need and craving for intimacy along with our need and craving for autonomy. And. We can have deeply intimate connections without losing ourselves and maintain our autonomy without running away and isolating. It’s a practice and it is possible.
Sometimes living more out loud looks like living smaller and quieter.
Every single time I know. And every single time I question my knowing. You’d think I’d learn to just trust it. But relational trauma and attachment wounds can do quite a number on our psyche
In order to make room for emotional intimacy and allowing our relationships to deepen, we need to release the stories of hyper-independence and individualism that trauma and our harmful cultural indoctrinates us with. This is an ever evolving and ongoing process.
We don’t always need to be in a state of learning and evolving. In fact, we can’t be in a constant state of learning and evolving. We need to take time to rest, integrate, practice what we’ve learned, and just have fun without all the heaviness.
Our unfolding, unmasking, evolving is an ongoing, never ending process. Sometimes we need to be focused and intentional about it and sometimes we just need to let ourselves be and go a bit wild, following our intuition and cravings with abandon.
When we are activated beyond our windows of tolerance it can be very challenging to not act out from this overwhelmed space. And the more we practice feeling our emotions and managing our behaviors when deep in our feels, the less damaging these experiences can become
Sitting in the unfolding of something completely new and unknown can sometimes make us feel like we are regressing in all the relational healing work we’ve done in the past. We aren’t regressing though, we are unlocking deeper levels of opportunity for our own growth and nourishment.
Discerning if we like someone for them vs how they make us feel or what they can/do for us gives us opportunities to choose relationships that are actually in alignment with who we are now.
Having people who can move with the flow of our expansions and contractions, our desires for closeness and solitude, and who don’t take our quiet personally, is priceless.
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