EWP :: 12. (Re)Claiming our vulnerability

Embodied Writing Pleasure series

This week we reclaim our Vulnerability.  

Something some of you may not know about me::

Seven years ago, I found out my partner of almost 20 years (and husband for almost 11) was having an affair.  The aftermath of this discovery was horrible, traumatic, painful.  There were days I didn't want to get out of bed but had to to care for the children.  There were days I would lock myself in my bedroom and scream into a pillow.  There were days I couldn't stop crying.  My chest constantly hurt.  I couldn't eat and when I did eat I would almost always throw it back up.  

Over the year that followed there were attempts at saving our marriage and relationship.  There were good days.  There were awful days.  There were break throughs and breakdowns.  It was a roller coaster ride in hell.  It is something I never want another human to experience (and yet I know people do every day).  

Six years ago, as we were working out the logistics of separation (which eventually lead to the end of our romantic…